Down to 170.4lbs this morning! :)

That makes me officially 1/3 of the way done with my weight loss and only 5lbs from my new Kindle Fire (that my husband bought and won't let me open until I loose 15lbs total). Mean isn't he?!

I've been doing GREAT in the diet area and TERRIBLE in the workout area. Like....haven't worked out at all.

NOT ONCE.

I know I need too, but 8 hrs of running around the OR wears me out...much less having to work out on top of that?! Nahhhh! Hehe.

I'll give it another shot this upcoming week though because I know my weight loss is going to slow down without it. Boo.

Plus, I went with my hubby and Clark to the pancake festival this morning and that is totally NOT on my diet plan!

Hopefully I can break into the 160's soon! :)

174.4lbs today!

That means, I'm down about 6lbs total! Not too shabby! And yesterday, the scale said 173.6lbs! It seems like I drop a "big" amount one day, then gain a bit of it back the next. Then have a "big" drop and then the cycle repeats itself.

AND I joined a gym!

Now, I just have to make myself go and actually workout.

My plan is to go and workout from 6am-7am doing some cardio then the back/abs circut. The goal is to workout on Monday and Tuesday, then take Wednesday off. Wednesday is church night and that will make for a really long day, plus my muscles will need a break. Then its back to it on Thursday and Friday. No workouts on Saturday or Sunday. See, I can do this whole working out 4x a week right? Right! :)

I'm actually doing pretty well in the diet area too. I've cut down my caffeine intake to 1 cup of 1/2 caff. coffee in the morning and the occasional Diet Coke/Sugar Free Tea. I'm also trying to eat as follows:

Breakfast: 200 cal

Snack: 100 cal

Lunch: 300 cal

Snack: 100 cal

Dinner: 400-500 cal

For a grand total of 1200 cal per day. I'm trying to eat more fruits/veggies and stay away from the pre-packaged stuff, but its kinda hard!

I had a doctor's appointment this week and I weighed exactly the same as I did last year. I was kinda discouraged when the nurse said this, but then I had to stop and catch myself and think about the positive. The average American gains 5lbs or more EVERY year! So, at least I had already lost my year's worth of "average" weight gain.

Hope this next week goes well and I can break to 172lbs!

Weighed in this morning....

175.6lbs!

Yeah! I didn't lose any (actually I gained .3 lbs) BUT I made it a whole weekend away from home without loosing too much ground!

:)

Jan 8, 2012

HI all! I'm so proud of myself...I behaved myself and ate well all week long!

I even brought my "diet" foods with me to my Drill weekend this weekend. The only snaffu I had was today at lunch. Our Commander insisted on taking all the officers out to lunch at Subway. And I caved and had a meatball sub on wheat with a water and baked BBQ chips. Not the WORST thing I could have eaten, but not super healthy either. I was standing there in line with everyone else and I just didn't know what to get. I'm thinking making a list of healthy choices for my "standard" restaurants that I visit might be the thing to do?

Oh, and on Friday am I weighed 175.3! I'm hoping my snaffu this weekend didn't set me back to far....we shall see when I weigh in tomorrow!

Also, I'm thinking I would like to reward myself for when I make healthy food choices. I don't want to base the reward system solely on weight because I'm completely afraid of becoming obsessed with the number on the scale. Maybe a reward every Monday for a week of good eating? Mondays aren't really much fun, so maybe that would give me something to look forward to and keep me motivated to make good food decisions through the weekend?

I just have to keep telling myself....ONE decision at a time!

Day 2

Made it around the block again...and only stopped 2 x!

AND I did well at work...you should have seen the looks on my coworkers' faces when I strolled in with this HUGE bag of tupperware. For some reason I couldn't find any small tupperware containters (well, I could find the bases, but couldn't find any lids) so everything was in big ol' tupperware bowls. Which therefore required a HUGE lunch bag.

But, someone brought pie to work yesterday and I didn't even have a slice! Sounds stupid, but those kind of things are hard for me to resist!

I made a low-fat Italian Chicken soup for dinner which was healthy (YEAH), but I did have 2 slices of french bread. I'm such a carbs girl....you can take away my desserts but please don't take away my bread! I did find a Sarah Lee brand of bread at Wal-Mart thats only 45 cal per slice....not bad! And it doesn't require me going to some specialty health store to buy it. With a toddler in tow, I'm all about one-stop shopping. I wish we had Super Target, but we don't....so I have to settle with Wal-Mart.

My weight went back down to 177.3 lbs today....i hope thats a real weight and not just the scale playing tricks on me!

Day 1

Well, I went and ran today. Does that count?

I was all set to get up and run at 6am this morning. I had even made Chris SWEAR to push me out of bed no matter what excuse I came up with.

6am came...and what did I hear? Clark was awake. And she WAS NOT going back to bed. In our house, Saturday is my sleep in day and Sunday is Chris' day. So, seeing as how today was Sunday....I could make a choice. Take Clark with me on my run (I hate pushing the jogging stroller...its hard enough for me to run, much less run AND push a stroller) or wait and go running later.

So, I did. I went an ran (more like a reallllly slow jog) during Clark's naptime. It wasn't much fun really, but I ran further than I thought I would. I must say, running in the middle of the day is not my favorite. There is no darkness to hide the bouncing fat rolls. Its embarrassing really. BUT, I did it!

I stopped to walk 3 times on my route through the neighborhood. I'm not sure exactly how far my little route is...maybe a mile? Sad.

As for my diet today? Uhm...I didn't have ANY fast food! I had my cottage cheese for breakfast and string cheese for snack. When we came home from church, I was starving and had 2 eggs in a basket plus a PB and J. Can you tell I need to make a grocery run? And dinner tonight was pasta. Definitely NOT on the diet plan, but I have made a list of healthy snacks/meals and am going grocery shopping for those items asap.

I hope that someday I'll be better at improvising and making a healthy meal, but I'm so bad at that right now. If "I need an easy/quick meal to make" it always ends up being bad for me. So, it helps me to have a list of healthy options in place to help me in those moments. And if you know me, then you also know that I really like lists. A LOT.

Tomorrow is a work day....wish me luck. There seems to always be unhealthy-for-me food in the break room...I MUST RESIST!

Oh, and I weighed myself again this morning and I weighed 180.2 lbs. Apparently just thinking healthy thoughts doesn't actually make you loose weight...who knew!

Who is that fat girl in the mirror?

I never, ever thought I would be overweight.

Seriously. ME? KALLAN KEM KAMPAS? I was the fit gymnast who worked out (literally) 10+ hrs a day. During my days in Idaho we had 2, 3 hr workouts a day...plus we ran with the collegiate track team...and lifted with the collegiate football team....and had ballet class...AND yoga class. All in one day. And you know what? After a LOT of hard work, I could run faster, jump higher, and lift more than any of the other girls on my team (and some of the boys too)...and yet, I was still the "heavy" girl. In my eyes and in my coaches eyes as well.

I'll leave the details to your imagination, but those last years of gymnastics were torture. An endless cycle of being ignored by my coaches because I was "too heavy," then starving myself to loose weight, winning praise from my coaches because I had lost weight, then caving in to my cravings for food, and, therefore, gaining the weight back and being ignored by my coaches once again.

When I quit gymnastics, I weighed 136 lbs. (we were weighed daily), had 5 % body fat (we were tested with calipers on a monthly basis), and had a 28 inch waist (measured at the hipbone).

Today I weigh 179.7 lbs. (weighed this morning for the first time in a month), I don't want to know what my body fat percentage is, and my hip area measures in at a whopping 43 inches.

Holy Schmoly.

HOW did I let this happen? WHY did I let this happen?

I don't know really. I've asked myself these same questions for the past 2 years and I don't have an answer. Oh, I know its because I eat terrible-for-me food and I never workout. Duh. A day in my life and that would be totally obvious.

I have lots of really good excuses. I had a baby. I work full-time. I have laundry to do, errands to run, dinner to make, and a house to keep clean. Not to mention a husband and daughter who I'd way rather spend time with then "waste" time on working out. Plus I work 5 extra nights of call a month AND I'm a Reservist so that all takes a lot of my time.

I use those excuses to not work out and eat right. And I'm not sure why I let myself do that. But I have to stop. I know that in my head and I know that in my heart.

I work in the operating room for goodness sake. I see the devastating effects obesity has on the body on a daily basis. Terrible disease and dying all related to a person's food choices. And yet, nurses have a reputation for being severely overweight. And I'm one of them.

I don't have a specific workout plan that I'm following or a calorie restriction that I can't go over, but I do know I have to do something. This morning I caught a glimpse of myself in the full-length mirror (I hid this particular mirror in my closet to avoid just such glimpses) and I didn't recognize the girl in the reflection. She was fat. Not just an extra 5 lbs kinda pudgy, but more like a where-did-those-three-fat-rolls-come-from kinda pudgy.

I know its going to take a lifestyle change. I know its going to take a lot of I-really-don't-wanna kind of work. But I have to...I need to.

I want to.

And I'm going to take it one day at a time. I'll post my successes (and my sure-to-come failures) on here.

Tomorrow's Plan:

Put my workout attire on at 6am and go run.

Breakfast: Cottage Cheese + Pineapple

Snack: Fruit TBD

Lunch: Salad + Veggie + Fruit + Low Cal Crunchy item

Snack: Smoothie?

Dinner: EZ Meal Plan

I'll let you know how I do!

Oh, and Happy New Years to you all!